Then Jesus said to him, Be Gone Satan! For it is written that you should worship the Lord your GOD and him only shall you serve. Matthew 4:10
So this is a really sensitive subject for me. Actually have been avoiding writing this blog. I think it’s important and definitely has been a calling on my heart to write. So here I go.
I know I have made some mistakes through out my life. I am guilty of a lot of things. I have made bad decisions, I have been a mean person, I have treated people badly at times. Umm…. I am definitely no angel. I take full responsibility for my actions.
However, I have gained a bunch of Enemies. I do not understand how people can live in good conscience doing what they do. I do not understand the thinking. Quite frankly there are things in this life that I am not meant to understand. I have to remind myself that all things come from GOD.
In this circumstance I believe the lesson that GOD was teaching me was to scare me straight literally. For the reason I was not obeying and was continuously disobeying him by using drugs and alcohol.
GOD was like you want to continue after I’ve taught you to be different. I taught you to be of me and the only thing you want to do is disobey. So I am going to punish and discipline you until you get it right.
And you shall remember the whole way that the Lord your GOD has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that he might humble you, testing you to know what is in your heart, whether you would keep his Commandments or not.
Omgosh isn’t that so powerful. That’s his love for us. As it stunk of all things that happened due to my disobedience. How can I be mad at GOD, for the thing I was choosing. The point of the scripture above is that no matter what or how many times I messed up he was there teaching.
Look Melissa he would say. I love you unconditionally I will show you the way so that when you decide to start making the right choices in this life it is then that you will see the reason I disciplined you the way I did.
Along this journey especially for the people who mocked me, didn’t like, called me names ummm shoot how can I forget being scared to death. When I say scared I mean scared!
I do not care how one feels about me. I did not and do not deserve to be scared like that and still am at times. Nobody deserves that. I don’t care what you have done! No one deserves it. I have to remind myself that I am protected by GOD, and his wrath is far greater than mine.
So when the mockers started when I would walk down the street. I would keep walking. They thought I was scared of them jumping me or fighting however it wasn’t that at all. I would say to myself father please forgive them for they do not know what they are doing. Which is what Jesus said in his final hours on the cross. And I was still very sweet, giving, loving and everything else of how GOD would treat them. (Did you know the word OF means a state of being?) the state of being that I was in was of the character of GOD.
When a mans ways please the Lord, he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. Proverbs 16:7
Not long after all of this happened…. wait let me tell you how GOD disciplined me. I again became homeless, I again lost everything. Even tho I was really trying hard to not make this happen it happened because of me trying and not doing. It’s a choice to use and drink. Second because I gained I bunch of enemies.
A couple months later I ended up in jail. Honestly I was grateful because if I had not gone to jail I for sure would be dead. Going to jail I thought to myself finally I can get away from these people who hated me for at the time I really did not understand why.
After sobering and being so sick. This was the first time I’d ever been that sick from alcohol and drugs. It was crazy stupid. I was in medical for a week.
I was moved into a general population Pod after I was better. Well there were girls in there that hated me. I didn’t even know them at all. I didn’t understand and there went my thought of getting away from these people.
I think the worst about it was they knew more than I did so therefore I felt like the laughing stock if you will. I’m still going through it now. Where I work. There are people there that knows what’s going on. They are rude to me. I will make remarks that come from GOD just to see the reaction on their face. Well, it’s lame. Anyways it’s a not so good feeling.
How much better to get wisdom than gold! To get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver. Proverbs 16:16
They mocked me they said things that I questioned how they knew. Honestly I wish someone would have came to me and said Melissa this is what’s going on and this is why. Nobody did.
That’s ok. It’s not made for me to understand nor know and as much as I don’t agree with that, it’s GOD who is in control. With that being said I listened and ignored by the power of the prayer father please forgive them for they do not know what they do. Never reacted never tried to defend myself, nothing I sat and took everything that was said and honestly eventually a couple of them started talking to me. That’s all GOD.
I did not want to talk to them however I know that’s not how GOD would do things so therefore our conversation were pleasant however short.
For David himself says in the book of Psalms, the Lord said to my Lord, “Sit at my right hand”, until I make your enemies your footstool. Luke 20:42-43
So that’s what happened in jail at least, he was protecting me while teaching me. I hope that people watched and saw my reaction of nothing and the reward from it. That’s for GOD to determine.
That’s not the point I know In time all of this will be over. I’m not sure when however I know in my heart it will.
My friends, listen you are to be pleasing and have the characteristics of GOD. If you really want change and true blessings of what your life is planned out to be. No matter what happens to you by another person or people please ignore it know GOD has it. Use the prayer Father please forgive them for they do not know what they do.
Then my friends I can’t be really mad about all of this. I mean I have been angry like I said before and I have not treated people good at all times. So how can I judge. I’ve never thought about going to an extreme of scaring some body. That type of hate is not in my vocabulary it’s not in my heart and it’s definitely not in my thinking.
Again how can I judge. I can’t. I’m sure at one time in my life that other Christians or even Jesus was telling The father to forgive me for at a time I did not know what I was doing. That’s because I didn’t know GOD.
I am forever grateful and I pray for my enemies and know I am protected by the father because I am obeying and am a true women of Faith to the Father.
If I slip he will discipline me and this time who knows what he would do to me.
The fear of the Lord is instruction in wisdom, and humility comes before honor. Proverbs 15:33
If you have enemies don’t give them the satisfaction of acting the way they do. Kill them with kindness and trust GOD. Don’t judge them and always LOVE them.
A hot tempered man stirs up strife, but he who is slow to anger quiets contentions. Proverb 15:18
Man my friends I love the wisdom in each proverb. It’s truly amazing.
Remember, FATHER PLEASE FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY DO.
Many blessing my friends and soooo much love.💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️
My name is Melissa and I am a imitator of The Most High GOD.😇
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